its been a while.....

its been a while since ive done any blogging, part of it bcoz im terribly buzy and part of it is bcoz da broadband is #$%# slow huhu~.... my raya holz is fantastic, got lotz of duit raya hehehe dis is my last raya to receive duit raya coz ill be working next year huhu~ but at da end of da holz sumthing terrible happend, huhu~ mj died... (mj= micheal Jackson= my arowana= my pet fish) huwaaaa... ive done everything i can to save him huhu~ but at least my fish didnt commit suicide like esther's fish hahahaha.....

Right now im back in da college and im in no mood to study, thank god most of my assignments is postponed, dis mean that i can concentrate on my puppet show dis thursday (-_-)v yeah... hopefully it'll b splendid and da kids will hav a lot of fun :)

ps: my room has a nice flowery smell thanks to da fragrance thingy that i bought 2 dayz ago, rite now im using waterlily scent oil which smells great

is this a closure or a new begining?

There are so many things that i want to settle before i graduate... and one of those things has to do with my relationship with her... it started with a rainy night three years back and it came down crashing 8 months ago on the eve's of raya haji... i felt there are things that should be said, words of thanks and most importantly word of sorry for all the things that i have done when i'm with her... I had that chance last night :)

we talk about what we did and how we are sorry for what we have done to each other, but still i have butterflys in my guts wenever i msg her, huhu~ do i still have feelings for her? i dun dare to ask her bout feelings nemore, maybe its best if we keep it that way, let time decide.... i dun want to push her coz she's already stress wit things that happens in her life which i cant reveal here... nah, i dun really have high hopes bout us being back together, though it would be really nice if it happens ;P hahaha, its a gud closure for us both... and for a new begining, its going to take a lot of gutz and trust, which are currently lacking

rite now im leaving the matter in her hands, lets c where dis is going (-_-)v

wut am i suppose to do?

i noe too much, things that i shouldnt actually noe huhu~ shuld i take action or shuld i juz wait for her reaction? im afraid.. im afraid that the same shit will happen to me the third time, i cant afford to take another hit, im not that strong my dear.... T_T huhu~ sorry im not willing to take that chance nemore... lets wait and c T_T

Assignments Sucks with a capital S

u noe wut i've told ya bout da never ending assignments? well i juz finish my micro teaching presentation today and it is undoubtedly one of the most horrible and shitty presentation that ive ever done, but thank god my groupmates was there to back me up huhu~ thanks gals... BUT... i still have to fin two other assignments before da weekend, it sucks and it sucks real bad huhu~ it is truly a long way before i reach my raya holz uhuk2~

and i havent started shopping for my raya stuff yet, juz dun really care bout that nemore... there is a lot of things that r playing in ma mind rite now... really looking fward to that trip to bandung... (-_-)v but da gud news is that i really like my story telling presentation which i reckon goes quite well yeah!!!! sumthing to cheer about finally :)

im off to another grup discussion huhu~ sumbody help me!!!! <- menjerit dengan stylo k, bukan dengan gaya lembut ;P

-a long day-

today has been a long day for me, juz fin my micro teaching work with my group mates, ekceli they did most of da work hahahaha ;P i wouldnt survive dis sem without them, thanks gurlz...

One of my fwen msg me juz now, he gonna get married dis december huhu~ it got me thinking of my own future, how would it be? and wit who? huhu~ i hate dis uncertainty... i alwayz have a clear vision of my future or at least how i want it to be, but these dayz i juz cant be sure nemore...

what i noe is right now i just want to be a gud teacher for my students, give em da best that i can give and teach them not just knowledge but also values that will guide em thru their lives... i really hope i can do that :)

HOPE, wut iz it with hopes, huhu~ hoping that i can turn back time or hoping that i would lead da future that i want? sumtime its too impossible, reality will sets in and i will come back crashing to earth... to all those who are waiting for sumthing that is impossible, my advise is: get a grip, see wuts in front of you and cherish da moment... its true wut they said, sometimes you will only know how much you love a person when you lose them

Huwaaa banyak nyer kerja huhu~

huhu~ banyak nyer kerja.... final year nih penat lah, assignments are a never ending story~ sumtimes i juz felt like i wanna give up and run away from all these work and probs.... but then reality sets in, failure is not an option for me huhu~ too many things are at stake, too many peps are counting on me to make it T_T

x apalah, after i fin all my work i'm planning to go on a trip juz to relax and enjoy a bit, juz like da picture which i've captured at a place which i had da best holz ever... a piece of tranquility~

so da plan is after da raya holz im going to langkawi wit all my moral fwenz yeaaaah (-_-)v hehehe going to hav a nice weekend there with bbq and all but the catch is that we will have an activity at a skul there huhu~ x apalah, nak wat cam maner kan

then after da exam im off to bandung indonesia for my family day, yahooo!!!! nak shopping sakan weh... hahaha but im a bit worried pasal orang indon x puas hati dengan orang malaysia, cmon lah guyz, we shared da same culture huhu~ either accept it wit an open heart or u guyz can juz jump out of a building hahahaha <- kejam siut... so basically there goes my saving T_T

I have a big plan for next semester which i can't disclose yet, huhu~ wish me luck k

I cant sleep!!!!!

I cant really sleep 2nite, havin my migrain and all so ive decided to create a blog... ive read some of my fwen'z blog and i juz felt like i want one too (-_-)v Alloy pun nak jugak!!!! hehehe

diz is my desktop wallpaper, tangkap sendiri tau hehehe but i guess itz obvious coz nampak macam noob yang tangkap... ps: noob tu newby

i'm trying to cherish every moment these dayz, juz trying to appreciate small things that are usually left out or hardly noticed coz i felt that "these small things are what makes life truly wonderful, i dun need a big expensive car to be happy i juz need a smile from someone (-_-)v ", although a really nice car would really help in that process hahahaha ;P

hurm..... i guess diz blog is also one of my wayz to keep me reminded of the things that ive done, felt and learnt especially since next sem is my last sem as an undergraduate hehehe six %$%# years!!!! tapi sebenar nyer sangat2 best huhu~ sebak memikirkan how i started my life in the campus with my TEYL fwenz and shared my laughter and tears wit them but it all will come to an end soon huhu~ six years are not enuff if you be fwenz wit these guyz and galz coz they are all really awesome!!!!! not 4getting my other fwenz in i4p and uum huwaaaa nak nangis r cam ni T_T <- over feeling coz x cukup tido wakakakaka.... c u later guyz